I liked my boyfriend
who believed it was impossible to waste time
I agreed with him so we never spoke of it
but now I think it wouldn’t have been so bad
to get his thoughts on the matter
It probably would’ve been useful
All these years later I wonder
why did he think it was so impossible?
Can he still think this?
How can he?
I don’t think it’s a waste to wonder
I find it useful
and eventually I conclude he now thinks
a whole bunch of stuff is a waste 
which he used to find useful:
big fucking beautiful things